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I feel like our souls were fused together in an ethereal realm before we ever breathed our first breath. And upon birth, we never knew of a love so genuine, pure and honest until we met. It may have taken us years to understand our love and connection to one another, but our souls knew the whole time. That's why we stayed connected and close through so many other obstacles life threw at us. And it wasn't until you placed your lips upon mine that our souls recognized our match. Our hearts danced and we fell into this whirlwind of love, passion and infallibility. We knew what was true. After that kiss, everything changed for me. The love I thought I knew before seemed so minuscule to what erupted inside me. You made me question everything in my life. You made me stop and re-evaluate some critical moves in my life at the time. I will never regret that, ever. I didn't stay in this town on a whim. My soul knew it was meant to be wherever you were, because that is where I felt whole and real. Everyday I woke with you beside me, was bound to be a wonderful day. And each day, 'I love you' just didn't seem to be enough to describe what I felt for you. Our souls knew this was forever and that is all I needed. I knew my eyes and my touch would communicate what words couldn't.

I had faith in us from the very beginning and now all I can do now is hope that you will remember what brought us together in the first place...

You are my heart's keeper.

I wrote this on 08/23/2009 at 2:10am...

"What has happened to us? What happened to time spent in each other's arms? Have we gotten so lost that you can't even see the tears and hurt in my eyes anymore? We've lost touch. It seems you can't enjoy time with just me anymore. There always has to be at least one more person to distract you. What does that mean? That you can't handle alone time with me? Am I not worth it? Have I done something wrong? Please tell me. Because I will do anything to fix it. I miss the days when we could just spend the whole day together and be perfectly content. I miss those days. I miss that time. I miss you!
You've gone to see the sunrise and it's only 2am. Why do you need so many hours away? Why do I feel like I just waste your time?..."

Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative

It's strange that the only music I can listen to is the Dresden Dolls or Amanda Palmer. You'd think that would be the last thing I would want to listen to, but it's not. Somehow DD and AFP make me feel calm...

Current Music: "Astronaut" - AFP

I've lost my partner and my best friend.

Sandra means the world to me and I know she is a good person. She is just trying to figure something out and right now, and she is doing what she feels is right. I wish for nothing more than to have her back in my arms again. If that is meant to be, then it will be. All I can do is try to make it through each day as best I can.

I feel like I have never cried so much in my life; this pain is indescribable. I feel so hollow and alone. And I know I am not alone, luckily I have some amazing people around me that have helped (Thank you, you know who you are). I don't know if I will ever accept what Sandra has done/is doing. She has ripped my heart out of my chest and shattered me. Everything I did was for her or us. People say you should never depend on someone else, but my heart knew it was ok to depend on her. I've known her for 8 years and we've been together for almost 4 years. I know her inside and out. Every fear, every freckle, I know. And because I know her so well, I can't hate her. I can't hate her because this isn't her. The Sandra I know wouldn't do this. I can't say if it will work out with her and this other girl, but Sandra has to discover that on her own. If things don't work out, she will step back into reality and realize what she has done. But I don't know if I will be there when that happens.

When we fell in love, it was magical. We developed a beautiful relationship built on trust, love and honesty. She's so smart and caring and passionate. I still believe she is the most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on. She is everything I have ever wanted in a partner. I honestly believed that we were going to be together forever. We talked about marriage and kids. We dreamed about all the places we would travel to in our life together.

But, as I said before, Sandra is going through something right now. And she feels that this other girl is worth the risk. Who knows what the future holds. Sandra has to discover what she really wants and needs. She needs to take a journey right now on a different path and figure some things out. I love her, I always will. I always told her I would love her no matter what and I mean that. Sandra is an amazing person, but sometimes even good people do crazy things. This is just a new chapter in life that is taking place. Maybe this happened because we aren't meant to be together, and maybe it happened to strengthen us and remind her of what we have. Only time will tell. In the meantime, the only thing I can do is wake up every morning, thankful to be alive. My heart and soul may be crushed, but I can't let that stop me from achieving my goals. I can't let this stop my life. She and I will find our place in this world, whether it is together or not...

Current Mood: pensivepensive
Current Music: Dresden Dolls - "Sing"

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Current Music: Silbermond

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Current Mood: excitedexcited

Current Mood: sicksick

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||| 36%
Stability |||||| 26%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 73%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 43%
Intellectual |||||||||||| 50%
Mystical |||||||||||| 43%
Artistic |||||||||||| 50%
Religious |||||||||| 36%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 70%
Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Work ethic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||| 56%
Conflict seeking || 10%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 43%
Anti-authority |||||||||| 36%
Wealth || 10%
Dependency |||||||||||||| 56%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 70%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Individuality |||||||||||| 43%
Sexuality |||||| 30%
Peter pan complex |||||||||| 36%
Physical security |||||||||||||| 56%
Physical Fitness || 10%
Histrionic |||| 16%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70%
Vanity |||||| 23%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 70%
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Current Mood: mellowmellow
Current Music: The Juliana Theory

Love by ruby mae
Your name
Your partner
You two areSoulmates
Your meeting was byChance
He/She is yourStrength
You are his/herOne and only
Your love willStay alive

Current Mood: lovedIn love ♥
Current Music: Head Automatica

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